I almost cried, almost.

So, I have this really weird thing...something, I actually do not think I have EVER told ANYONE.....
in the mornings, I cry.

First off, to clarify, I am not a 'crier.'Although when I was young I will admit I was a 'cry-baby' I have out grown my ways, and now crying is a rarity for me. I mean, tears will be shed, but they are never uncalled for and I never utilize tears for pity's sake. When I cry, it is because I am upset, or really angry, but mainly because I am upset. There is, however, one exception: sometimes in the mornings I have an inexplicable need to bawl my eyes out.

It's this very, VERY strange habit of mine, and I cannot truly explain it, but I will try. Sometimes, when I wake up in the morning, and I have enough time, I watch television. I will take some time out, and watch part of the Today show, or if it's later in the morning, Oprah. Well, sometimes, even if it's something stupid, I feel this mysterious itching sensation right behind my eyeballs, and while I try to ignore it, it often shivers down my back. That weird feeling? Why, I do believe its an almost incomprehensible urge to cry.

Over what, you may ask? Oh, well, there is quite a range, from images of babies (yup, just babies, or baby animals, those really don't have to be doing anything, just sitting around, looking adorable) to people getting married, anything Ms. Winfrey discusses gets my tear ducts working, EHarmony commercials can overpower me, and today? Well, it was Samantha Brown's trip to Portugal on the Travel Channel.

Yes. It almost...ALMOST made me cry. Now, I think the obvious connection is that Portugal, in my mind, and geographically, is VERY closely intertwined with Spain. Well, when I see this woman, on her own, walking the streets of Lisbon (which is clearly a place made for me, I mean, Liz-Bon...c'mon, c'mon!), I think of my future experiences, growing nearer and more real by the day, and well, that itch-shiver combination strikes again. I held it back, I always do, but I did ALMOST cry during a Travel Channel special.

And now, my secret is revealed. Weird, right?