Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Too Many Oreos?

I had a very interesting dream, which I will retell starting, now:

It begins with a letter, in my hands, a very serious letter, which I open. Inside the letter reveals that I, little Liza Sorokin, have been invited to meet the President.

So, I am flown to the White House, where I meet Barack Obama. And he sits me down, and informs me that....

He is my real father. I am adopted, and that I am the love child of him and some College hook up.

I begin to cry. I find out he has many such children in the US, that I am the second oldest of these kids, and that I have an older half sister.

I continue crying.

Flash forward: I am in a car. The jeep actually. And I am racing in it, crying and talking on the phone to Joanna. I tell her the news. I cry. She tells me its okay. That althrough they are my adoptive parents, they still love me and everything. She tells me that nothing is different.

Then I realize something.

Wait...I'm a quarter African? That's AWESOME!!!

Anyways...I finally make it hope, tears dripping down my face, and confront my parents for all the lies they told me...the resemblances, the lack of baby pictures, suddenly it all makes sense!!
They tell me they love me, they never wanted me to feel different. But suddenly I do. Its not a blessing, its a terrible curse.

So I cry more.

Then I wake up. I realize my dream had a huge narrative flaw.

I was born in Russia.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Let it Snow?

Well, I woke up this morning to see that the ground was covered in snow! I have no idea that snow could fall in DC, but alas, here it is.

I have been recovering from the horribly violent stomach flu that flushed through my system on Saturday and have not been able to explore DC.

Anyways. nothing new to report. Bleh.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Art Whirled

THIS BEGINS WITH ART BLABBER, so if ya wanna skip it..just scroll down to the YELLOW


So, as you may or may not know, I am currently studying at the Phillips Collection, a small, little museums in DC, but also, the first national Modern Art museum in the nation *(thats what makes us sound fancy...we're not)

As I have been here for a few weeks, I have begun to understand and really see that Art Community at first hand, seeing the people who shape and define what is happening in the little community that is Art in the US. (I would say Art in America but that is the name of a pretty big magazine so...in the US it is). Well, its really interesting to see these people, meet them, and hear them speak. Needless to say, what I am finding is that people talk smart. Jibber jabber laden with with words that I usually need context to understand, conjugations of verbs that I had always thought were nouns, and such. Now, I have always spoken alright, hell, I did host a radio show, but I was never a "speaker" and definitely not one that sounded extremely intelligent.

My struggle has become to figure out whether all this fancy talk means something or whether it is simply pretentious. Really the same goes for modern Art itself. I hear many an arugument of the artist as enlightened one, leader of the people, dreamer of the people, and to me, well, the artist should be expressor of the people, speaker for the people. Works should express something, not nothing. Works to be some real, and if not beautiful, at least emotional and powerful. I am not a Romanticist, I do not need blatancy, but I still need, emotions! Feelings! Ideas! Visual Stimulation!

Needless to say, I struggle with accepting Jackson Pollack as my personal savior.

Here's the deal:
We read a famous little article called Avante Garde and Kitcsh, by Clement Greenberg, and it pretty much argued that high art should maintain this on-high power, above the masses of the people, and that Kitsch is the Normal Rockwell approach that is for, well, 'everyone else.' Now, this was written quite a while ago, and its ideas have since been attacked and bombarded with arguements...but the idea still lingers in my head.

Is art an eltist thing? Inaccesable and illegible? Is it no longer meant for everyone, but only for the few and powerful?

If so, well, it goes against everything I believe.

Being at the National Gallery the week that Barack Obama was sworn in meant that there were A LOT of people from out of town visiting a museum they had never seen. Seeing these families enter the modern wings and explore things that were supposedly 'too difficult' for them to understand was frustrating. Art is to be shared, and spread, and loved, amongst all, and it bothers me to think that some Art Theorists are such elitist jerks.

Anyways...sorry, about my little art rant. ...........................................

Living in Dc as a young adult, and studying here, I have begun to explore the town. I have seen Adams Morgan a great area where I literally at the best falafels in the world. No joke. You visit, I will take you there. There is a block of Adams Morgan FILLED with small restaurants from everywhere, Peru to Pakistan, France to Vietnam. Its incredible. I want to go to all of them...but I don't want to get fat...hrm..or poor...so I probably never will.

DC is a city of government, all the black peacoats, suits and ties, and shiny loafers seems to march into the area where I live only to leave at the end of the day. Needless to say, the nightlife on the Hill is not so great.

Dupont Circle, where my little darling Phillips is located, seems to be a bookstore area. Coffee shops, a few museums, every embassy one could dream of, and bookstores. Its an interesting little place, always bustling with cars, foreign people.

Today, I am going to U Street, the area which is famed for its Ethiopian cuisine, its night life and its overall artsy vibe. Busboys and Poets is a DC Institutions, with spoken word nights, poetry slams, artist readings, coffee and sandwiches. Its main location is in the heart of the U Street neighborhood, along with what seems to be a diverse crowd of neighbors. I will write about my experiences in my next post.

Until then,
Love you all
Miss you all
Me

Post Script:
I forgot to mention, yesterday was the anniversary of Roe V Wade which brought out huge masses of people to the capital, carrying big pro life signs and very bloody vulgar images of aborted things.. Its was brutal and offensive.

All the people with me were as disgusted and offended by the images and actions of these people as I was. Some groups of pre-teens came down to protest almost as a vacation, and I cannot understand why these kids were being used to protest something I am sure they do not understand. Needless to say, the entire day, I was angry and frustrated with these people, howver, I said nothing because they wanted to agitate me and I would not let them.

How can we not just accept the actions of others although they contradict our own life ideals? Acceptance people, is the only way we can all get along, and teaching hate in such an anti-WOMAN way is upsetting for me.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Yeah. I went,. I did it.

We woke up at 7am. There were people yelling outside, police cars zooming past, and noises abound.

We left the house at 8am, after showers and breakfasts, bundled up in our jackets, hats, boots. Its chilly outside today, nicer than before but chilly.

WE walked there. While the Capital is two blocks away, we had to walk about 25 blocks in order to hit an entrance to the inaguration. We walked, we walked, following the masses yearning to be there. To see him. We passed posters, pins, hats, bags, and tees with his face for sale. We passed food vendors. We passed millions of people who had already left, already entered, already prepared for the whole gala.

At 9.30 we made it. We entered, pushed into people, weaseled our ways around, and finally, in the end, settled upon a random spot only about a block or two from the Washington monuement, so we could be a part of history, by watching it on a jumbotron.

Yes. That is how it goes. And seeing the flocks of people when the camera panned out, I realized HOW MANY had decided to be a "part of history" today. Millions. There were millions. And there we stood, body to body, holding eachother warm as the chill began to sink into our bones, and waited.

It was anticlimactic. I mean, he said an oath. He was president. There were introductions. And then a speech which did not seem to be as inspirational as his previous ones were known to be. And then, people filed out. As soon as Obama walked away from the podium, the crowd turned their backs to the TV and towards the exit of the park/land area.

Did you hear the boos? The na-na-na-na hey goodbyes to President Bush? I did. It was mean. I felt bad. He did not do well, but it was just mean spirited.

Did you realize, that for a five minute period, Joe Biden was Vice President to George W. Bush? As Yo Yo Ma and Istzak Perlman played, we had a very interesting leadership situation. Bush was still in charge while Biden was now his VP.

Did you notice that Dick Cheney could not even walk out to the people? That he was the ONLY one who could not stand up? And while the older Bush walked with a cane, he still managed to slowly make his way to the stage. I guess, sometimes, the media is polite enough to not show things, much like the media in the 40s hid FDR's inability to walk, it seems the Dick Cheney's was equally hushed.

Did you know that after Obama, the Clintons recieved the most applause. A commanding applause from an audience that seemed still enamored with the two? Or the one?

It was cold. It was strange. To see the crowds go so crazy when the man, the president, was announced, it was amazing.

To me, however, I could not help but feel something of joy when Barack Obama messed up, when he got confused. This is not a bitter joy, but one more of reality. Barack Obama, no matter how confident and empowering, was scared. As anyone should be, to take on the world in the times of such crisis. For a split second we saw him waiver, we saw him realize the words he was saying, and beyond that, the enormity of this situaition. This was no normal Inaguration . This was an event. A concert, people crowding around, booing and cheering at certain times, coming together, huddling to share warmth, and the share with eachother a moment that America will not soon forget.

I guess, I mean, I didn't think this would be soo gooey. Hell, I felt weird being there, my feelings were too ambivalent. But there was something interesting about the whole situation.

To be honest with you, a lot of the crowd was African American, they had come out to see a man finally overcome what has happend to be one of the greatest struggles in American history. Families came out in troves. Students, of course, huddled in the crowds. Other ethnicities, groups, languages, people, stood shoulder to shoulder. But to me, it was a moment for the African American community. Many argue Barack Obama is not "black" enough, and while his story is not that of the average African American, he has inspired those around him to recognize the reality of the situation.. And something about that momentous second gave me goosebumps. Because, it is truly a great step forward in the American issue of race relations. Of cultural relations. Of diversity. And of acceptance.

Now if only we could have a woman stand there and take the oath. Alas, we have yet to come so far, but just as the woman were the last to have a right to vote, it seems that they too will be the last to have a leader to call their own.

Also, that Reverand Rick Warren was booed, at least of what I could hear, assumingly for his anti-gay, anti-choice stance.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Case of the Missing Mail Box

As I have mentioned before, I happen to be in the heart of the city during the Inaguration not only a new president, but what seems to be a new era in the history of America, one of "change". Well, as we all know, people love the Obamster... (I am trying to figure out my nickname for him... let's see how that goes) and the inaguration is turning into a giant and chaotic thicket of people, music, celebrations, all with the traditional red white and blue color scheme.

Well, in preparation, the area surrounding inaguaration city, or the Capital BUidling, has become a mild police state. Beyond the five cops who appear to be permemantly stationed on the corner of my street (something that will definitely prevent me from my favorite sport, jaywalking) there are helicopters flying over head, and yesterday, a bus drove by blasting some announcement that was fogged by the closed windows of the house. Needless to say, with the influx of what one person has told me is about 25000 police officers and legal-like people, I do feel mildly as if I am living in some sort of police state, one that gone koo-koo bananas the the Obameister..

To continue the interesting developments of my current situation, a few days ago a roommate of mine sent out a few mailings in the mailbox on the corner of our street, right by the permanently parked police. Yesterday, in an attempt to send more things, the same roommate returned to the spot where a mail box once stood to find a new block of cement, and no mailbox in sight. In an attempt to prevent mass destruction, we now have no mailbox on the corner. Removed for public safety, it seems as if our big post box sprouted legs and walked off!! yes. I know, the obvious reasons for the removal, its proximity to the capital and its solid, box like structure make is prime terror quality bomb holding capable, however, the speed that our whole little community has changed is shocking. Within only a few days, it seems like we have become a new town, gone into community lock down, serious and mailboxless, disconnected from writing, we turn to the Barackstar to tell us what to do....Alright, well its not that intense. We just don't have a mailbox..but nonetheless. Its a bit odd.

Anyways, these are my updates. I do plan on attending what I imagine will be quite an even tomorrow... but for now I have to run errands and study.

Miss everyone
Sending my love
Happy MLK day!
Me

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Behold! At last! A New POST!

I am a liar.

Or more of a...bender of the truth.

While I have returned to my blog, it does seem I am not as faithful as I once was. The relationship has changed. I have no crazy world travels to talk about.

Why, if anything, my life has gotten, just so-gosh-darn patriotic. I find myself living on Consitution Avenue, seeing American flags on every corner. I can look out the window and see the Capital building. And now, well, its inaguration time.

Yes. The time has come. The time of change. The time when we have a new president, and I while I will refrain from my usual teetering in betweens of the political world, I will merely describe what I have been seeing here, in Washington DC, as a new president prepares to enter office in tee minus two days.

Well, to begin with. My day usually begins with a brisk five block walk to Union Station, the nearest metro to my house, and after this walk, I often enter the station itself in hopes of warming up before my next walk from station to school. In this time, I have walked the station, well, a few times, and the one interesting thing I have seen is the sheer number of Barack Obama merchandise in the stores. There are at least two if not three small, station, stores that sell only Barack Obama gear, hats, scarves, pins, posters, books, life size cuts outs. etc. etc.

And this weekend? Well, beyond the stores devoted to Mr. Obama, there are now outdoor salesman walking the streets with gear, every metro stop, from U Street to Chinatown, has at least one person hawking Obama gear...although it is actually usually a lot more than one person. Oh, did I mention there are sweatshirts with the Obama family picture on it?

The world has gone crazy for Mr. Obama, and DC shows it. The fan fare, the toursits, the parties, the pins! Everywhere, everything here has transformed into a shrine to our future president. And while I am not sure how I feel about this whole thing, the sheer size of this persona and image has grown into something that I have never seen before.

Yesterday, Barack Obama arrived in Union Station, after a train ride accross at least part of the country. Pulling into the station, I am sure he walked past all the stores, although closed, that were built on one promise, him. I cannot understand or comprehend how that can make a person feel, the knowledge that it is his name, his face, his voice, his marketing that literally feeds these store owners, and beyond that, the fact that before he is sworn into office he has become the most famous and most popular president that we may have ever seen. Seeing it, as a regular person, with confused political ideas, and overall ambivalence towards politicians, I cannot help but feel strange. But seeing this as the man himself, as the new demigod of the US, well, I just cannot understand how he may be feeling.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

In DC, Why Not Post?

So, I have settled into my life here in DC. Well not settled. Actually, I really haven't done anything. My bags are yet to arrive, along with my parents, so I have just unpacked one bag, and slept one night in the new house where I live.

I am snuggled right in the heart of Capital Hill, a few blocks away from the actual Capital building, and a few from Union Station. The house is big, but also filled with people.

I share a front room, with a bay window over looking my street, and living on the second of three floors. I have the weekend to explore and then I will be starting my life, classes, internship, jobs...who knows what else?